I lost it

I lost it!.. My life is doomed! I can never depend on myself again!.. I lost my favorite and bestest letter in my life!.. I'd do anything or give anything just if I could find it!..hmphh!..=(..

I'm sooo sad..nothing can cheer me up..except finding the letter..Well, I do memorize what it said, but I can never prove to anyone something if I don't have the letter..=(..

So sad., right??

Declamation piece: The Fetus in the Stomach

Last night, I had a strange dream. I dreamed that I was a tiny dot in the womb of my mother. Formed by love, and blessed by the Lord. I could not see, I could not hear, but I could feel that I was loved. Embrace by the warm tenderness of my mother's flesh.

Here, I breathe on my mother's breath!
Here I fed on my mother's food!

Oh what a place to live! Oh what a place to grow! I was extremely happy in my little world. Believe me, it was happiness beyond compare.

In God's time, I was a tiny dot, no more. I grew, and grew, and grew. Caressed by parental affection. I wanted to say, thank you mother, thank father, for your love, thank you for my life.

One day, I heard splashing sounds, and boyish laughters. I can hear! I can hear! My heart was filled with joy! I kicked and kicked in celebration. Then, I stopped. I heard a sweet voice saying, "Mark, Joe, out of the bathroom now! You might catch cold!" I thought, she must be my mother. Yes, indeed, she was my mother. The two boys, Mark and Joe answered, "Yes mama!"
I echoed in the silence of my heart, "Mama, I love you, Mark and Joe, I love you! Wait for me, my brothers, we will climb the guava tree in mama's garden together soon."

On another day, my father cam home and told mama, "I have the results! It's a girl!"
"I am a girl! I am a girl! I am the only girl! Mark and Joe, you will have a loving sister! Mother, Father, I promise, I will be a good daughter! I will make you happy parents!"

But one evening, deep in the night, I heard my father and mother, talk about hard times, "Rising prices of gasoline! And food! High cost of education!'' My father cried aloud, "How can I support a family of three children?!" I was shocked! Am I an unwanted child? Oh, yes that was what my father had meant!

Oh no, father, please, mother, love me as you love Mark and Joe!

I shouted, I shouted again and again, "Love me, love me please!"
I kicked, I kicked again and again for my mother to get the message!
I cried, I cried again and again so my father and mother would pity me!
I prayed, I prayed again and again, "Lord, I want to be born!"

My father came home, late one evening. He told my mother, "Here are pills from the health center, take one for thirteen days." I was afraid! When the first pill was taken by my mother, the nectar in my mother's milk, turned bitter!
Oh, God! Pills to murder innocent babies! Unborn but with life!
Father, mother, why are you doing this to me?! Do you not love me? Do you not pity me? Love me as you love my brothers!
Father, you said you cannot support a family of three children, are you killing me just so Mark and Joe will live?
Father, mother, brothers, I do not want to die! I want to be part of you! I want to wash your clothes, I want to cook your food, please do not kill me!

How cruel, how cruel! I cannot defend myself, I cannot run away to avoid the pills poison! I cannot spit it out for my lips are weak and tender!

Somebody, Help me! Nobody cares. I want to live! But nobody cares. I want to be with Mark and Joe!

Then, I felt unbearable pain. I became weaker, and weaker. I was dying little by little. I want to live! But I could breathe, no more. Father, mother, you have murdered me, but I love you--Mark, Joe, good luck my brothers, I am sorry, but I can no longer climb the guava tree in our mother's garden...I..I...(deathly, but audible whisper..)

Isn't my future doggies to be CUTE?..Judge them..

Yorkie,.A fine doggy..Soo cute..But that's what I can also say to the rest of my idol doggies..


The maltese..Cute, white and fluffy..


The teacup poodle..Adorable and the size of a teacup


The great, violet-eyed havanese..


The so common Shi-Tzu..

That's all..I forgot the rest though...They were so cute!..

The old scandal of Vanessa Hudgens

She was my old Idol..But sad to say..I think now she's a **** ****!..=)

This is what I would like to say.."Vanessa! Look at you! Look at all your fans! They turned their innocent faces BACK on you!! For all that you have done!.."

Shame on you, dear Baby V!,.

Friend Advice

The oracle says:
To make new friends, many times all you have to do is step outside your door and meet people. The important thing is not to be afraid to get out there and show the world who you are. Most people need friends just as much as you do.

Do you have a really hard time choosing? I mean like., for example..You have two tickets to the most rocking concert in your city, and you are one of those who got the last 3 tickets in your entire school,. One ticket is yours and two are left,. You have four best friends and they all beg you to take them to the concert,.Well., A solution of course takes one step at a time..

• Invite two who you think would be most interested..
• Talk about it openly with them, and decide together what to do..

• Purchase the extra tickets necessary, and spit the total cost equally among all of you.

Internal Organs for Lunch

YUCK! Talk about disgusting!..
Who wants internal organs of a pig for lunch and supper?
I can't believe I'm eating this stuff that smells like poo!
I mean, who wants to eat something called "DUGO"?
The internal organs crushed and smashed and eaten!..
Yuck! I think I'm going to hurl!..
I'd rather eat banana peelings from the trashcan than that!..That is so true!..
Heeeyy!,,that's awkward..At first I was watching a movie of a giant crocodile that roars like a lion.,Now I'm watching a giant bear that roars like a lion..

hmmphh!! Still bored!..

I've been bored like 24/7
Somebody help me!..

But I was sooo not bored yesterday..it was a blast..The dinner for a cause..also so romantic..=)

The life here

The life here is pretty much boring..and fun..There's nothing new in my friendster account..And definitely nothing new on TV.. And no new textmates or no new news..
I miss going to school now.. Even if it's just one day since yesterday ((Dinner for a cause))..We have one week of freedom and vacation..but I don't see the excitment., All I want is to go to school and see my friends..I'm more of a school girl than a homie.. It's just that, here at home all the people are older than me, and my best cousin comes only at TIMES..and tomorrow is a busy afternoon-day.. I have to go to the Prayer Rally and declame..hmphh! I want to continue blogging.. Typing my thoughts.. It better than nothing..Don't you think??

I wish I could just visit my friends..But they're all to busy..

SheesH!..
Talk about City Boredom!.. I'll just look for a new layout for my profile in friendster.. It's the only thing I don't have there..I also have a blog there, but I feel more comfortable here..

It feels better..
And besides..I'm getting to feel bored with friendster..there's no new comments..

Can you give me advice on what to do during free times aside from doing nothing?..
Make your idea good! I don't accept stupid answers..